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Yesterday I was supposed to go cross-country skiing to Drammen with Synnøve and Christie. It didn't happen. And there's only one reason why it didn't happen. My body failed me! The body that I've worked hard to take care of. The one I've given vitamins, minerals, exercise, and care to. The one that was supposed to take me to Drammen. It got sick! Not really sick, just sick enough that I don't have the energy or breath for physical exertion. The kind of sick that's just annoying and never comes at a convenient time.

I've worked a lot on my physical body because I like having it, and it usually obeys me. I've also worked a lot on my mind so that it too would obey my wishes and needs a bit more. Like, for example, this trip we were supposed to take. The last week, I've spent some time worrying, preparing, and working on mentally preparing myself for this cross-country skiing trip. I understand it sounds a bit strange. It's just a cross-country skiing trip with friends, after all. It doesn't really require any planning. I'm not quite there yet. I still overthink some things. Among other things, my physical health. Since September, I've been struggling with my hip. It's been so painful that I haven't been able to sit in a car for extended periods, for example. So the car rides in the USA were completed with plenty of stops and leg stretches. The season's first cross-country skiing trip was 2 km long and resulted in 2 days of pain. I have the ability to push myself. That's both good and bad. I can ski long distances and ignore the pain at the time. But then it always catches up with me. That's why I'm unsure. In addition, I've been having problems with my arms/hands. Unsure what's wrong, but they get painful at times. I experienced it very much when I went on my little test trip at Geilo last Saturday. They ached during the trip, and when I got home, I realized they were very cold too. Painfully cold!

These are in Norwegian, but they are encouraging words from friends on Facebook.

I shared this with you on social media. And I got so much support! I couldn't think positively about anything! I just thought my body wasn't working, so the trip to Drammen was out of the question. But you pointed out that it's far to ski 10 km alone and without breaks in -15 degrees. You pointed out that even though I felt like I had only gone a third, I had actually gone almost halfway to Drammen that day. I didn't understand any of this. For my experience was just that my body was aching and therefore broken and useless. You disagreed and said it! Without that, I probably wouldn't have taken my skis home and tried again. I wouldn't have given it any more time. But because you pointed out how strong I was and how confident you were that I could do it, I kept trying.

So even after a tearful solo cross-country skiing trip in the mountains last Saturday, I didn't give up. I went on short trips, stretched my hip, consulted the doctor (already had an appointment for something else), read your words again and again. You are amazing supporters! Synnøve and Christie are also amazing supporters! That's why my mindset changed. I was so ready for a lovely trip in good weather and fun company.

But then my body failed. How am I going to get over that? Because my first reaction was frustration. I can't control sickness. I understand that, but I wanted to! I even took Paracetamol and went to bed early! I ate plenty of healthy food to give my body energy. I rested a lot, so I didn't exercise. Yet the cold continued to creep in. So suddenly, and still, I have to work on not getting annoyed and frustrated with the body that doesn't obey. It really wasn't anything either it or my brain could have done differently. Sometimes you get sick. That's just how it is. My body didn't have a cunning plan to prevent me from having fun by making me sick. It didn't come up with symptoms to stop me from doing anything. It got germs into the system and didn't manage to get rid of them before Saturday. That's all.

Feeling my body fail me

Disappointed

In need of self-love

So actually, I should be really grateful that my body works. Because that's exactly what it does! It works really well! It stops the germs and fights for my sake. It takes energy, and I have to respect that. I actually respect my body. That's why I eat healthily, exercise, and listen to it. I just forgot a little. I'll remind myself of that over the next few days while my body works in the background. It's a pretty awesome supporter too.

There will be more long and challenging trips with S&C. I think they actually secretly want me along because I slow their pace down a bit. Because it must be really exhausting to always be in such a hurry to get there 😅 They probably use me as an excuse to have a leisurely trip over the hill! 😅

I really appreciate all of you cheering me on! I accomplish a lot because I'm stubborn, but I accomplish more because I have support. So THANK YOU so much for the support and for cheering me on in every way. Now we're back in Geilo and will relax here for a few days before a few days of work at home in Modum.

Hope you've had a fantastic week! If you haven't, just put on your skis and go a long way in good company! Then you'll be happy 🤩 Or lie on the couch and rest. That's allowed too 🥰

My body failed me!

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