Life is mostly weekdays
Translated with Chat GPTI've changed my job situation. I've generally changed my life and what I fill my days with. This different year is well over halfway through, and I've enjoyed every minute of it (at least tried to). Some I've enjoyed in hindsight, mind you. Simply because it took a while to understand how to enjoy the difficult minutes. I've tried so many new things in the past few months that it's crazy to think I hadn't taken these actions before now. Why did I wait? What was I waiting for? I believe the answers are that I was waiting for the bottom. I needed it so I would be able to kick off of that and start climbing upwards. Why, I think, was simply because I didn't know what to do until I had all the experiences of how I didn't want it to be. I think many of us have several bottoms. Some bottoms are false bottoms and don't give you enough bounce to get far enough up, so you just fall back down, and then you fall a little further. Some people probably also have deeper bottoms than others. We are probably as individual there as in everything else in life. The point is that you hit your personal "I've had enough crap" bottom. It's often a bottom that you have to stay on for a while to find out what's up and down. Where it's best to kick off. Where you can grab hold to pull yourself further up. It's the bottom where you feel that this is too dark for anyone to survive. Either you stay there forever, or you become so scared of the dark that you gather all your strength to get up to the light.
I met mine, and it got me up and out into the light. Here in the light, I thrive. I have more energy, more emotions, and more joy in life. I have made changes that have helped me learn more about myself. For example, I've found out that I'm really good at learning new things. Not academically smart, I've never been that, but acquiring knowledge that is relevant to what I'm currently doing. Challenges are still common. Like earlier this week when the neighboring house burned down. I worked, with all my new tools, to convince myself that I didn't have to go to Morten's to be safe. I could be safe with myself. I managed that! A year ago, I would never have managed it. Also, I now have a lot more emotions. I allow myself to have them, so they come out more. This means that I cry when I think about how painful it must be for those who lost so much. That's also a new thing for me.
It's not an everyday thing, to say the least. At least it wasn't. My weekdays now are so incredibly different from what they were like in February last year. Back then, I worked four days a week at the school, one day a week for Morten. I had fixed, rigid routines and I was terribly upset if anything changed. It could be crushing if I had planned to wear an outfit, but then spilled something on it in the morning. Or if I arrived at work and someone was parked in one of the parking spots I liked best to use. That would ruin the whole day. Nothing went right. That was my everyday life before. Now, I wake up some days and I'm not entirely sure what day it is 😅 For example, I sent a message to Stine, my friend, asking if we were still meeting tomorrow. She was slightly confused because we had arranged to meet on Monday. And I sent the message on Saturday. That whole Saturday I was convinced it was Sunday. I have days where I wake up and have to look around to remember if I'm at home or in Geilo. Imagine that! I handle switching between two places to live without major difficulties.
I'm learning new things, achieving new things, and enjoying new things. Like creating websites or getting more clicks on the blog. It's really exciting ☺️
So weekdays have been replaced with simply just days. I work on weekends and evenings. Yes, I even work insanely early in the morning. All because I've changed my attitude towards life and what I fill it with. I fill each day with what I feel I need that day. Because every day is a celebration 🥳 Of course, I work even if it's not at the top of my list of what I want to do that day. But I set aside time for something for myself every day. Exercise, yoga, doctor's appointment, walk, socializing, good food. You get the idea. And then I focus on that. It has made me feel joy every day. Often also a sense of achievement. Either because I've accomplished something, done something, or just because I've given myself something. If I skip a workout because I'm stressed, I can get a bit irritated with myself. Not because I didn't exercise, but because I didn't prioritize myself. After all, I'm important too. So then I give myself a walk or a yoga session before going to bed.
Randomly selected photos from each month of 2023. Simply weekdays.
This new way of living life has done so much good for me. Precisely because it makes weekdays fun. I've felt less guilty about not measuring up at work or at home, for example. Fewer negative thoughts about myself because I couldn't see that I was good enough. And I've realized that I am good enough just as I am. I trust that those who show me they like me actually do. At the same time, I'm working on not needing others' approval to feel good enough. That will probably come eventually 🤞🏼I'm pleased to have managed to fill my life with weekdays that bring me joy, highs, and achievements. At least for the most part 😅
Do you want to make a change in your life? Then I can really recommend taking a look at what you're filling your life with, and who you're doing it for. If it's not your dream or for yourself, then you should change it faster than a penguin slides down the big slide at the waterpark. Because you sooo deserve it! Life is too short to be halfway anything. Live it fully and live it for yourself! 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡